This week's weigh in (no scale available, so I'll assume no change since my clothes fit the same as last week although I don't feel as good this week with all the diet soda)! I haven't taken pictures yet, except with my kids and I use them to hide me normally, but I will and measurements when I can figure out where my boys put the tape measure! Still avoiding the camera but my husband keeps threatening..so soon there will be pics - promise! We've been on vacation (I just don't post that I'm out of town, we're back now, so I have to say - vacation sucks for staying on target!)
Monday, June 21st: 203.5 lbs, Size 14
Monday, June 28th: 200.0 lbs, Size 14
Monday, July 5th: 196.5 lbs, Size 14 (fitting a little looser)
Monday, July 12th: 196.5 lbs, Size 14 (fitting like last week)
Monday, July 19th: No scale available, Size 14 (fitting like last week - luckily, but guessing that the weight will be up when I weigh in later this week)
Monday, July 26th: 198.5 lbs, Size 14 (1 lb when we got home from vacation, one pound added this past week)
This was not a good week when it came to staying motivated! I worked a lot, and never fully recovered from vacation before being thrown back into work so I slipped up somewhat there right off the bat! My son said I looked like a "plump sausage" - I wonder where he gets this from...he isn't even in school right now, he's about to turn 4...but man those comments hurt! Instead of getting mad at him, I turned to food this week! I know I shouldn't, but it's not that I went off my diet...I just strayed a couple times this week! I ate healthy foods at mealtimes, I just didn't skip the snacks even if I wasn't hungry. I was stressed...it felt like the world was crumbling around me at times, and I didn't have extra money to shop! If you're curious about that last comment...I can either eat or shop for stress relief...I haven't really found another alternative in the past 15 years...when I was single I didn't mind spending money and having debt, but I try to avoid that now so I turn to food (hmmm...is that why marriage and kids make you heavy?). I'm trying to find an alternative still, but exercise doesnt' relieve me of stress mainly because I worry about my heart and how it will hold up throughout...this week I just didn't feel like I could win! Hopefully this coming week will be better!
I catching up with an old friend, getting away from my family, and will hopefully have some down time just for me! It's a much needed break and hopefully I will have some time to refocus my energy on me! I'm tired of always putting everyone else first and ending up hurt in the end, so I am even more motivated to lose the weight...and ready to drop another 20 lbs so that hopefully my heart arrythmia will stop inhibiting my ability to exercise the way I want too! I am ready to be able to once again climb more than two flights of stairs without getting extremely dizzy...that will be the first sign of improvement!
The red dress hangs prominently in my closest (it blocks all my pants) so I have to look at it every day....it will continue to be my motivation - even if this week, life and stress took over!
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