Eventually you see yourself the way others see you...

...and you realize that you will never truly be happy in your current body....at least that's what has happened for me!  I am starting on a new journey of weight loss, healthy eating, and exercise in hopes of finally weighing less than my husband and being able to keep up with my kids!

I received the most thoughtful gift from my son (he made it at preschool with this note attached about why I was special), but there was one thing that really struck me...in the eyes of my 4-year old, my favorite thing to do was "rest"...I don't ever want him to answer the same question like that again...couldn't it have been working on the computer, gardening...anything but rest?

Next time I want him to say exercising, playing with me, or at least something more active!

I started this process a year ago and never truly took hold of who I was becoming until I saw myself in the pictures we took at Disney World!  I had been behind the camera so long that I was rarely in the pictures.  Today was the first day of the start to a whole new me!

I started my diet through Medi-Weightloss, we planted a garden, and set up training sessions with a personal trainer twice a week.  This time I will succeed and we will be changing habits as a family so it never comes back this time!  Just know that if I don't post for a couple days, its probably because I am exhausted from dieting, exercising, gardening, and trying to prove to my kids that I enjoy more than just resting....because, someday I won't need as much and I'll be able to keep up with them.

Weight has been a struggle for me, but I am determined to eat when I need to, be happy feeling a little hungry...and exercise as much as possible.  This time, I'll try to document my process of Finding Myself because I know that this time I will make it to my goal even if it finally means putting myself first over everything else!  I can now look in the mirror and see myself the way others see me and I'm not happy with it, so I know I will win at it this time...I just know I will win this time!  Fingers and toes crossed that I make it through week one without a snag, then I will be on it for the long stretch of meeting my goal of finally being healthy enough to keep up with two little boys!